Sometimes, you have to go against your deep rooted values, even if just with the tippy-toes of your left foot, and suffer the consequences, in debilitating silence while you walk the journey of (self) forgiveness so that you can realize just how strongly you believe in them, these values that you have always adhered to. Life had good reasons to tempt you against them, be thankful. Know that you are the essence of love, even more so, because of how you feel. Know that it will be ok. It will. I promise.
SuzyQ